Month: March 2007

Time to Kill..

Most of us live running behind time, and we only stop when we die in heart attack or high blood even in a car accident rushing over time. We never want to stop and try to THINK, at least THINK for a second on what is really going on around us. Slow down the movement and try to put a smile on the face at least once in a while.

We are so anxious to know whats in the future until we tend to forget whats in the present, and NEVER looked back on past which sometimes can help to fix some mistakes we be apt to repeat and repeat over time.

Complaining on having not enough time is one of THE MOST favourite words. We all have equal time given for a day. No one have more or less. It depends on how we use it, how we trusted our time into putting our life in hell or heaven. And its all about TIME to create so many problems, so many questions and curiosity.

“A life is lived in an instant”

Life is not all about trying to show how we success in our career, but a little bit of humanity, love and the life itself. Sometimes we always want to talk, don’t want to stop and try to listen. STOP and LISTEN. Learn to know people beside you, learn to recognize the smile, and learn to memorize the voice. But how many people can do that? How many of us who can really STOP and LISTEN? No one. No one at all.

Life is complicated if we see it that way. Well, I think if we see the simplicity from the complicated, we can see it right there, just an everyday thing for us to deal with. Some people say LIFE IS A JOURNEY, yes, indeed, a long one. What we found on the journey is to add the beauty of it. Isn’t it a human nature to love beauty? But why for all these while, we are rejecting the beauty of life?

‘Sorry sweetie, I don’t have time, other day..?’..or ‘In hurry..!’ is like a food to most life. A promise that will never be fulfilled because time won’t allow? Hate, anger and disappointment linger, and forgiveness vanished. How many tears drop from a daughter eyes knowing she cannot buy her father time? Too luxurious too expensive.
How many night a daughter cannot sleep when she want her father to see her once in a lifetime graduation day, when all she had for an answer is, ‘little girl, daddy cannot make it, time is too harsh here.’

Time kills life. When it don’t even started.

too little too late?

Life is like a total stranger to me now. I wouldn’t know where should I go and where I am heading to. It getting awkward everyday and I am starting to wonder, where and how it would be ending.

I just try to make my life into its fullest. I’m not asking too much in my life, just some smiles, love and happiness. Hmmmm..too much?

I place myself into something I am not sure of, and it kills me inside to know that it’s not really that wroth, when suddenly fact knocks me to my foot. Again, I swallow the reality and put aside the strange feeling, pretend to be normal, and keep on living.

It’s kinda strange and hard for me, but, who am I to decide. I have to change the little girl inside me to a sturdy being, who can take everything, who can decide with confidence, who will never shed a tear for a small thing.

But… I still hope it is me…i really wish..

Where should I begin?

Stomp The Yard

Latest fantastic Movie directed by Sylvain White (I Always Know What You did last summer), STOMP THE YARD is ALL ABOUT a STEP DANCE!

Well fallin’ in love wid STEP UP, im absolutely Falling So hard, So Fast wid this one.

The music is great, and so do the dancing!

I dun really care about the story, (who cares!!) when i can see all the great dancers are there, dancing wid all their heart and soul. Well….If you have a great enthusiasm in dance thing, this movie would satisfy you! I bet!

“To Struggle With Light Colors”

A violet night kept you alive
But you never had the will to stay here
I was possessed by your eyes
But you fell asleep most of the time
So I learned to speak myself
While you were in dreams somewhere else so…..
Maybe maybe if I could see you now
I’ll find a way to sing somehow
Something to make you stay so wide awake somehow
She always said I was too silent
And I never found the words to entertain her
Maybe I tried just too hard to always be clever
While she only stopped for simple words to keep her safe
To keep her safe
Maybe maybe if I could see you now (oh ohhh)
I’ll find a way to sing somehow
Something to make you stay so wide awake somehow
Maybe maybe if I don’t see you now
I’ll keep myself shattered somehow
Oh in every way, every way somehow
A man who speaks with a silver tongue
Yes he whispered to me something sweet that swept me away
I sold your soul to a pack of wolves
For two pounds of pride and a lifetime supply of regret

A song from Daphne Loves Darby.
A deep words somehow makes me think..hemmmmm…:)

Planning Ahead

I check my email this morning…My cousin send me this..Well, something good for me to start my life today…Lets share it..
Some people are planners.
They like thinking ahead and being prepared.
They get a high from being on top of things.

But some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn’t always turn out as planned.

You don’t plan for a broken heart.
You don’t plan for a failed business venture.
You don’t plan for an autistic child.
You don’t plan for spinsterhood.
You don’t plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love – and be loved forever.

You don’t plan to be sad or hurt.
You don’t plan to be broke or betrayed.
You don’t plan to be alone in this world.
You don’t plan to be shattered.

You plan to be happy.
Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want.
But most times, what you want and what you get are not the same.

We, mortals, plan.

But so does God in the heavens.

Sometimes, it is difficult to understand God’s plans especially when
His plans are not in consonance with ours. Often, when God sends us
crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot choose the cross
that God wishes us to carry, but we can carry that cross with
courage knowing that God will never abandon us nor send something we
cannot cope with.

Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, God sends us pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, God sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes God sends us illness so we can take better
care of ourselves.
Sometimes, God takes everything away from us
so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.


I must wake up in a wrong side of my bed this morning.

Wake up late. Ok its acceptable.
Hurriedly go to take my shower. In the shower room, im out of shower gel…Yelling to my friend, to give me her shower gel. She’s gone to work…Shit then I have to go and find myself.

Just before I go out from the shower room, I slipped and fell on the floor. SHIT!

10 minutes, Im ready to go to office..Quickly put my shoe n grab my keys. Another SHIT!!! My keys is wid my friend, I put in her bag last nite. Arghhhhhhhh…
I call her, she said she had to wait for her boss to come, got urgent briefing. So I have to wait!

Waiting for almost an hour, she come and opens the door. Then only I can breathe. In a rush, I take my sandal and run to the lift.

Made it finally, out of the lift, I suddenly realize something wrong with my sandal…look down and…i wear one red and one black sandal!! And I have to say another SHIT!!!

Run again….


I made it to office…

Hope my bad day will end…