Month: November 2008

A thought of endearment..

Trouble sleeping….my mind keep thinking of my grandparents, persons i love most…and missed….

…2 years after my dear grandpapa passed away..I miss dearly..
All the memories with him still fresh in my mind, like it was just yesterday. He’s the greatest man in my life.

Will always remember the way he makes jokes when i was in trouble, to makes me forget my trouble, how he carry me when i was a little girl, walking me and encourage me on my he sooth me when i had my bad day. He suffered colon cancer for 10 years, before finally resting in peace, and he never complains how much he is suffering all those time. I would say he live his life to the fullest, and never regretted on what he had gone through in his life.

I am his granddaughter, who trying her best to be like him…But as much as i tried i never get even close. I am not strong enough, i am not positive enough and i am not optimist enough. I really want to be like him, i really do. Can i..?

He once told us (all his grandchildren) to always have each other in good or bad times, and yes we practise it until now. I love the big families i have now, and we always thank him for this, even though we are all far apart all over the world, but well, internet connecting us. We keep on updating on each other what’s going on.
What i regretted most in my life is that he did not wait for me to say i love him, before he gone forever. .Will he think that i never think about him? Will he think that i didn’t love him anymore?Will he hate me for that?

The guilt haunted me until now..He taught me love, but love is not the last thing he heard from me before his last breath. And where was I when he struggling for his life? Here…I am here, with my so-called struggling-my-career on..I really wish i could turn back the time, i really wish i could…

….and 1 year after my grandma passed away..i love her..

My sweet grandma..she’s the most beautiful women on earth, i would say..She have a small eyes, sweet little lips, her skin very fair, small figure yet very strong woman. Hmm..yups, she’s the opposite of my grandpa, in a sense of ‘point of view’..They always arguing about even a small thing , but always, my grandpa will finally smile and surrender..and my sweet grandma will have the win smile on her face.

She is a very independent woman, even with my so sweet grandpa as her husband, she never trusted anyone but herself for her life. She’s a very proud woman, who don’t want anyone to see her weakness..And me, i dare not to cry even in anything in front of her, cuz she wont allow any tears..

She always ask us to be the best in everything..sometimes, as a child, i was very hurt and angry when she nags for me not doing well in my task, or my school, when i have tried all my best to achieve what she wants…yet she still complaining, and i felt like she never appreciate my efforts..

As time goes by, i then realize she was very proud of me, but she keep in hide from me..she wants me to do more, and more and more..she’s an angle…she knows whats the best for me, yet she never say it..she will push me to the way, even when i scream i hate her..she wont care..

I still cant accept that now she had gone, and in my dream always…is her…my beloved grandma..i still can feel her very strong spirit pushing me through my hard day…and even shes no longer here, i can feel her giving me all the strength when i am really down..i wish i could inherit her strong spirit and confidence. Tears still running down when i really miss her, cuz i really wish she can hug me and tell me that everything is gonna be allright…..

And tonight..i really want to sleep in her embrace….i really do…

🙂 I started my Blog with a smile….i am happy..i am in a mood..:)
As Christmas is on his way…oh God, i cant sleep thinking about it..:D…

Well, end year will be the Most busy Month..1st because all tasks must be completed before the new year, 2nd because i need to make myself busy so time goes by very fast, and when i suddenly realize..its time for HOME!! :D..

Ok what’s i am up to lately?

i am studying new software for network monitoring..:)..I am centralizing ALL my projects, and i found Centreon ..Well its quite interesting, i havent finish studying it actually..just set up some hosts and all, and try to check if it really work with my kind of project and environment..Hopefully it worth cuz i have spent most of my time with it…hehe..well my brain kinda slow when it comes to Networking thingy…I hate networking actually, but ..well…its my job, so keep on studying, keep on experimenting things, and will go smoothly…Yep be positive! hehe..

I hate complexity..i love simplicity..and suddenly i found WordPress..Haha…was actually visiting BBKK’s website..upssss (heheheh)..after all these while, i finally visiting it..and guess what, first thing of all, after i hit the ENTER button and i start to move my cursor to the links, checking how the data passed to open new link..and i can sense a simplicity in it..:D..

Quickly i SMS Defoo asking him what he use for that website..His first answer is not what i ask, but ‘baru tingu kn!’ hahah..and he use WordPress..

Interested, i google WordPress..its a simple sort of like CMS for blogging…but if we can modify here and there, it can make a great website..yep..and i study it..
Very interesting, i now install it in my server and had several plug-in to complete my website function..He!Very simple, but powerful, just the plug-in quite confusing sometimes, and i hv to read 1 whole bunch of tutorial to make it work..:D..Fully satisfied when i can finally make it work!!…No need to be expert in programming, just a knowledge is enough…Now that i confirm that it can make a good website, we will come out with the design..and bom! my new website will be release soon..heheh..

Now counting the days..26 days for home 🙂

”Success Breeds Success”

There was a farmer who grew superior quality, award-winning corn in his farm. Each year, he entered his corn in the state fair where it won honors & prizes.

One year a newspaper reporter interviewed him and learned something interesting about how he grew his corn. The reporter discovered that the farmer shared his seed corn with his neighbors.

“How can you afford to share your best seed corn with your neighbors when they are entering corn in competition with yours each year?” The reporter asked. “Why sir,

The farmer replied, “Didn’t you know? The wind picks up pollen grains from the ripening corn and swirls it from field to field. If my neighbors grow inferior, sub-standard & poor quality corn, cross-pollination will steadily degrade the quality of my corn. If I have to grow good corn, I must help my neighbors to grow good corns.”

The farmer gave a superb insight into the connectedness of life. His corn cannot improve unless his neighbors’ corn also improves. So it is in the other dimensions and areas of life!

Those who choose to be in harmony must help their neighbors and colleagues to be at peace. Those who choose to live well must help others live well. The value of a life is measured by the lives it touches…

Success does not happen in isolation; it is most often a participatory and collective process. So share the good practices, ideas and new knowledge with your family, friends, team members and neighbors & all.

As they say: “Success breeds Success.”

BTW…A continuity of EPF contribution thingy on my last post, my cousin reply me this.It deserve to be shared tho..:).

Assume monthly basic salary is RM4000.
– If your monthly EPF contribution is 11%(RM440 ),taxable income = RM3560,income tax payable = RM77.
– If your monthly EPF contribution is 8% ( RM320 ), taxable income = RM3680, income tax payable = RM109.

Conclusion : If you choose to contribute 8%, you will end up paying more income tax to the government,which will make the government richer. They said this measure is meant to boost up the slow-down market, but from this example we see that the money does not go into the market. Instead the money goes direct into the government’s pocket through the greater amount of income tax that we will have to pay. Obviously this measure does not help the market at all. …hmmm….

Types of Girl?

Hmm…having a bad all in dizzy n coughing n throat pain n tired..Really had a bad day…:(

Styin at home, thinking an idea to entertain my bad day..

then was having a usual ‘games’ with my friends just now..To challenge Mr.Google, asking question, and see what Mr google say…My search is about a Girl..Hahaha..yea, no idea on what,cant think .. so i google..Here is my findings..And i kinda like it…Thanks least i laugh today…:D..

So girls out there, which type are you?:P

Types Of GIRLS

She remembers everything, FOREVER. [Nahh..habisla…]

RAM Girls:
She forgets about you, the moment you turn her off.

Everyone knows that she can’t do a thing right, but no one can live without her.

She is good for nothing but at least she is fun!

Difficult to access.

Always busy when you need her.

She makes horrible things look

CD-ROM Girls:
She is always faster and faster.

E-MAIL Girls:
Every ten things she says, eight are nonsense.

VIRUS Girls:
Also known as “WIFE”; when you are not expecting her, she comes, installs herself and uses all your resources. If you try to uninstall her you will lose something. [OK at least i DONT agree with this one..but its a joke, so…whuteva…ukahpedibeh..LOL]

ummm…cold nite…uneasy me…let me get my sleep, to kill the germs..with 2 pills 1 glass of water..i paused my life tonite…:)…

Errr….i am stuck

12:49 pm
At Work

Err..well, this is the first time in history i blog during working hour..hahah..Too free..?Nah, not free, just…just the brain seem not to cooperate…so i cant think of anything to continue my work..i am stuck..really stuck..

But feel a bit ok when i dont have to try too hard to get things done..mean take a break to blog..haha..blogging eradicate brain clog….did i just create another fantastic quote?LOL..

hmm..i am really do longg hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm now..looking at all the files, on my table..Not yet softcopy dead..another 5 reviews to do, 4 meetings to go..i hate meeting, especially a meeting without preparation.where people and actually dont know what is the agenda.And suddenly off topic..while i have to rush for another meeting at different place..Not yet time frame for me to sesat here and there, cant find the place..LOL…i hate when they say ‘continue on next meeting’..i hate people attending meeting without prepare on action and conclusion..for me Meeting is to let people know the solution, not to add another problem..then if no conclusion why not just call it TALKING not MEETING..hehe..yea, im a bit cranky when it comes to this kind of situation…

LOL..finish with i hate things..

I think i need an external brain to put some of my ‘unwanted yet important’ stuffs in..hahah..anyone?

Hmm NST news today ‘EPF cut to put more money in your pocket

KUALA LUMPUR: In a move to put more disposable income in workers’ pockets, the government will allow Employees Provident Fund (EPF) members to reduce their contributions by three per cent for two years beginning Jan 1 next year.

Deputy Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Razak said with the reduction, the level of contribution would still be at “a very reasonable 20 per cent, with employers contributing 12 per cent and employees eight per cent”.

I dont think its a good thing to reduce EPF just for the sake of a few bucks…It just doesnt make sense..

If average earning say 3000, you can only add RM90 in your pockets, it’s not helping you much..For me, on this time of economic crisis, we better keep all what we can to save, not to think on have more in our pocket. Cuz, even without this RM90, you will still have to live, no matter what..umm..thats what i have in mind la..:D..

But yea, its one of their ‘brilliant’ idea to ‘help’..Maybe can try harder to think other alternative?

p/s no offends…:)

Ouch, gotta switch back to work…another 5 hr for home..cant wait :)…

A song..a lyric…a…..

A song…

Weekend..i am having my peaceful time..:)..digging stuffs i havent got time to do during weekdays…Well maybe, this weekend, i am in a mood of…
Yep, song and lyrics, affects some of us in so many ways..The songs, the memories, the good time, the friendship..and umm..ya…:)

Yeah, digging to my fav songs, check this video from INFINATEZ, ‘My Baby You‘ (By Marc Anthony to the love of his life, Arianna, his beloved daughter) and their HOT new(not so new la) song ‘PAPARAZI

On stage during GangStarz..


And this is ‘Dance With my father again’ by Luther Van Dross..A lovely song..



Try’na decide Try’na decide
If I really wanna go out tonight
I never used to go out without ya
Not sure I remember how to

Gonna be late Gonna be late
But, all my girls don’t have to wait ’cause
I dont know if I like my outfit
I tried everything in my closet

Nothin feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Takin them off ’cause I feel a fool
Try’na dress up when Im missin you

Imma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay

With nothing but your T-shirt on……

Gotta be strong gotta be strong but Im
Really hurtin now that you’re gone
I thought maybe I’d do some shopping
But I couldnt get past the door and

Now I dont know, now I dont know If Im
Ever really gonna let you go
And I couldnt even leave my apartment
I’m stripped down, torn up about it


He is the man..

He’s HOT isn’t he…:D

Yep, he is the 44th President of America..And i love him..haha..
Hes a great man, a family man, a good father, a wonderful husband..He just the man..
He knows when to talk, he act in knowledge, he smile in sweet sincere smile…He is Barack Obama…

This is His Wonderful Speech last nite…I adore this..i love him 🙂

“Hello, Chicago.

If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible, who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time, who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

It’s the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen, by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different, that their voices could be
that difference.

It’s the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled. Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been just a collection of individuals or a
collection of red states and blue states.

We are, and always will be, the United States of America. It’s the answer that led those who’ve been told for so long by so many to be cynical and fearful and doubtful about what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope
of a better day.

It’s been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this date in this election at this defining moment change has come to America.

A little bit earlier this evening, I received an extraordinarily gracious call from Sen. McCain.

Sen. McCain fought long and hard in this campaign. And he’s fought even longer and harder for the country that he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine. We are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader.

I congratulate him; I congratulate Gov. Palin for all that they’ve achieved. And I look forward to working with them to renew this nation’s promise in the months ahead.

I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart, and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton and rode with on the train home to Delaware, the vice president-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.

And I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last 16 years the rock of our family, the love of my life, the nation’s next first lady Michelle Obama.

Sasha and Malia I love you both more than you can imagine. And you have earned the new puppy that’s coming with us to the new White House.

And while she’s no longer with us, I know my grandmother’s watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight. I know that my debt to them is beyond measure.

To my sister Maya, my sister Alma, all my other brothers and sisters, thank you so much for all the support that you’ve given me. I am grateful to them.
And to my campaign manager, David Plouffe, the unsung hero of this campaign, who built the best — the best political campaign, I think, in the history of the United States of America.

To my chief strategist David Axelrod who’s been a partner with me every step of the way.

To the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you’ve sacrificed to get it done.

But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to. It belongs to you. It belongs to you.

I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn’t start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington. It began in the backyards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston. It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had
to give $5 and $10 and $20 to the cause.

It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation’s apathy who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep.

It drew strength from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on doors of perfect strangers, and from the millions of Americans who volunteered and organized and proved that more than two centuries later a government of the people, by the people, and for the people has not perished from the Earth.

This is your victory.

And I know you didn’t do this just to win an election. And I know you didn’t do it for me.

You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime — two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century.

Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us.

There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after the children fall asleep and wonder how they’ll make the mortgage or pay their doctors’ bills or save enough for their child’s college education.

There’s new energy to harness, new jobs to be created, new schools to build, and threats to meet, alliances to repair.

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term. But, America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there.

I promise you, we as a people will get there.

There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won’t agree with every decision or policy I make as president. And we know the government can’t solve every problem.

But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And, above all, I will ask you to join in the work of remaking this nation, the only way it’s been done in America for 221 years — block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.

What began 21 months ago in the depths of winter cannot end on this autumn night.

This victory alone is not the change we seek. It is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were.

It can’t happen without you, without a new spirit of service, a new spirit of sacrifice.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism, of responsibility, where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves but each other.

Let us remember that, if this financial crisis taught us anything, it’s that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers. In this country, we rise or fall as one nation, as one people. Let’s resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long.

Let’s remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House, a party founded on the values of self-reliance and individual liberty and national unity.

Those are values that we all share. And while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress.

As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, we are not enemies but friends. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection.

And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn, I may not have won your vote tonight, but I hear your voices. I need your help. And I will be your president, too.

And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces, to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of the world, our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand.

To those — to those who would tear the world down: We will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security: We support you. And to all those who have wondered if America’s beacon still burns as bright: Tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity and unyielding hope.

That’s the true genius of America: that America can change. Our union can be perfected. What we’ve already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.

This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that’s on my mind tonight’s about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She’s a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing:
Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldn’t vote for two reasons — because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.

And tonight, I think about all that she’s seen throughout her century in America — the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can’t, and the people who pressed on with that American creed: Yes we can.

At a time when women’s voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.

When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs, a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.

She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that “We Shall Overcome.” Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination.

And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change.

Yes we can.

America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves — if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?

This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment.

This is our time, to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth, that, out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope. And where we are met with cynicism and doubts and those who tell us that we can’t, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people:

Yes, we can.

Thank you. God bless you. And may God bless the United States of America.”

Im Down…

11:10 pm

Just another day passed..

Another 2 months to go for christmas..for home..for the family..I am totally not in the mood for anything, when my mind visiting home..I miss home so much…really missing home..

I miss the smell of my childhood bedroom, miss my mommy’s nag, miss my mommy’s cook, miss fighting with my sisters, miss laughing with my cousins,miss the familys talking, teasing , jokes and everything..everything…

My little love home does give me life..hmmmm..Sometimes i wish i dont have to grow up, so i can always have those sweet things in my everyday life..:)

If you ask me, the things that makes me smile..its my sweet little home, my warm big families..Oya, my family will add another member this November..:)..Welcome to the family sister :)..


Waking up everyday, rushing for office, traffic jam, bad behavior drivers, tons of work,…Thats my everyday life..thinking on how to make it change a bit…doesnt mean to be changed at all, but at least..hmmm…

yeah, now been very busy with my new assignment. Company branding..Lots of thing,lots of work..lots of headaches..Sometimes i can feel so much pain on my heads, just lead me to sleep..
Signing off yet another projects does add the headaches..My brain cant stop processing all inputs, here and there, this and that..OMG..its really makes me down..

Am planning to do something fun on weekend…Or..mebbe reading..yayy..I love reading, to disconnect my self from this hectic world..

Yep, about to midnite, gotta get ready for my work plan tmrw :P…