I delivered little Eli naturally but with a help of vacuum. I am so tired, after so many pushes and i told Dr.Sutha to please use the vacuum. I can’t stand the pain anymore. Each time i push, i can feel the baby is about to pop out, but still it went back in. I am so stressed and i can hear the baby heart rate is dropping.

Immediately they set up the vacuum and ask me to push very hard for them to ‘suck’ the baby out. I give my very painful push with a loud scream and they fix the vacuum and pop the baby out!

It is such a joy and relief when they put baby Eli on by chest for the first time. Eli announcing his arrival to this world with a big loud cry.

But all of sudden his breathing became so fast, the nurses need to bring him to the other room. He enter the world with umbilical cord  around his neck ‘strangling’ him (Nuchal Chord). No wonder i really have hard time pushing him out!

I was so worried but Dr Sutha has not done with me, i prayed so hard for my baby i cried while Dr Sutha ‘fix’ me.

Eli has to be in monitoring unit for a night, his breathing is not consistent  and he need oxygen support.

The night after the delivery was without him, and the feeling is soooo empty. Luckly, early in the morning the nurses deliver our baby into the room. I almost cry.

Thank you Lord for this beautiful baby boy you sent to me. Each time i looked at him, i smile remembering the ‘gift-from-heaven’ he bring around his neck, entering the world <3